When your YOUNG and SINGLE in a city, FRIENDS are your FAMILY

Things have taken a turn in my life. At one point i thought things will just stay the way it would be, unfortunately it has taken a wrong turn. I feel that my "happiness" has been taken back just like that. Now i’m just one miserable women thinking wut would happen if i lost it completely. People can change so easily. I’m missing the happy moment that i had before. I honestly thought it would last but unfortunately things have been slowly changing and i’m really really afraid that i will never have that moment again, but instead…i will completely lose it. This "letter" below is dedicated to a special sumone.

"I may sound happy to you, I may sound normal to you…but the real fact is…i’m crying a river inside my heart. The pain that i’m feeling right now….u can’t imagine. If only i have the guts to tell you how much i need u in my life.
If only i have the guts to tell you how much u have completely change. U weren’t the person i knew before. But i don’t dare to tell u that..coz i know..the way ur acting right now…is because of my fault.
If only i have the guts to tell you that i have fallen in love with you but once again i don’t dare to tell you that coz u might not feel the same way about me…and i’m scared that my luv for u will be rejected and i dun want to be hurt anymore so it’s best for me to just keep my feelings for u inside of me.
Eventhough i’ve been with several guys before this…but I have this strong feeling that ur actually my first real love and that’s why it’ll hurt so bad if my feelings get rejected by you. I have my own reason why i said this.
I’ll be leaving in a few weeks time…and before this i felt so hard to leave u behind but as things between us have slightly change…maybe it’s better for me to leave. Maybe then my presence here will be more appreciated by u.
I’m not sure if u’ll be reading this but i wanna take this opportunity to say sorry to u.

I may not be the perfect person for you but I hope u forgive me for all the wrongness that i’ve done to u and thank u for everything u’ve done for me. Right now…all i can do is praying for the best from Allah…and if there’s fate between us, insyaAllah we’ll be together."

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