This is life
For the past four days…i have been too emotional. It all started last thursday. That day was the first time i met someone really important in my life. After work, at 6pm..i saw him there at KL Sentral…it was like a dream come true. I finally met the person who helped me, who was willing to listen to my problems, try and settle em. I owe him alot. So..that day…after we shook hands, i took him to Secret Recipe…belanje mkn cake. Kesian die…penat…br blk from Kedah…straight away went to KL Sentral just to see me. It felt weird at first…didn’t talk much…but i couldn’t stop smiling coz i can’t believe that he’s actually there sitting right in front of me. After an hour…we went back home. SInce i’ve finished my assignment at KL Sentral, I decided that i wanna take emergency leave on Friday. There’s no point going back to the office , sit there and do nothing. So…on Friday…since I have nothing to do…the both of us made plans to meet again. He wanted me to accompany him to Pertama to buy shoes. The plan was…i pick him up from his home and the both of us can go together. He lives in selayang…and i’ve never ever been there my entire life. The weird part is..usually i won’t drive to places that i don’t know and i’m not familiar with. But somehow…for him…i’m willing to. I went to his home…get acquainted with his mom and sis. Then, we took off. We didn’t do much that day…just try and get things done before one pm coz he has to go for Friday prayers. Our original plan…was to go to Mid Valley and catch a movie on Saturday. However, that Friday night, I received a text from him saying that we may or may not meet on Saturday. I couldn’t sleep that night thinking wut if i’ll never meet him again. I was praying for the best hoping that i’ll have the chance to see him on Saturday. Sampai terbawak2 dlm mimpi…..(weird..hehe) The next morning, when i woke up, i tried to be more like a positive thinker. Before playing tennis, i texted him saying that eventhough we may never meet again, sekurang2 nye i have some memories of both of us to bring back to UK. It took lots of courage to send him that text. But…deep down…i was hoping that my prayers will be answered to see him again. When i was playing tennis….rs mcm tk sedap hati sgt2. My emotions were all jumbled up..kejap2 rs marah, sedey, kecewa. So when i was playing…suddenly my racquet string snapped. For superstitious people, it means that bad things are gonna happen. So i stopped playing, sat down…try to calm myself dgn berzikir, bace ayat kursi coz i know that’s the only thing yg boleh tlg calm my self down. When i got home….alhamdulillah my prayers were answered. I received a text from him saying that we might be able to meet up after all. So..we met at Mid Valley, bought tickets for "Train of The Dead" (dun watch this…it’s so boring) at 1pm. We had an hour before the movie so kitorang jalan2 je, talk bout stuff. Went to Jusco…bought my perfume..and the salesman thought that the both of us looked good together. Hehe…very funny. Lps beli perfume…pegi tgk wyg and..after that he insisted that i must eat something for lunch so die bwk pegi this one restaurant. He ordered asam laksa i think..which was kinda salty..hehe. I don’t know why but that was the time my heart choose to suddenly feel so sad. Everytime i look at his face…i kept telling my self that this may be the last time i’ll ever meet him. What will happen if i can never see him again? And the biggest question….have i fallen in love with this guy? After lunch..suddenly out of nowhere…i just started to cry. He pulled me some place secluded so that i could talk about it…but somehow..i just couldn’t say anything. I cried even harder when he suddenly had to go home to attend a function. That time…all i felt was that i dun want to let him go. But i didn’t have the guts to say it to him. Before we parted our own ways…he handed me one of his Man U jerseys. It was really grateful and i really really appreciate it so much. That night, i had a Lancaster University gath at Rebung, Bgsr. It’s suppose to be a happy and joyous function but somehow…my mind was someplace else. All i kept thinking was him, him and him. I didn’t stay there long…by 10 o’clock…i left. We had a small misunderstanding…but maybe it’s my fault coz time tue i was damn bloody emotional. But thinks worked out ok. The next morning…Sunday 26/8/07…he had to go back to Kedah..so this is my last chance to see him before I’ll be leaving back to UK in oct. I got up early..drove to his house..pick him up and went for breakfast. As usual…i didn’t eat…x lalu la. Then…blk rumah die…met with his family again..this time his father was at home. His mom offered me chocolate chip cheesecake. It was delicious actually…so i asked tips from his mom on how to make the cheesecake firm. So…his mom gave me a packet of gelatine powder. (thanks aunty…hihi) And then…time tu..i br tau yg Fareez (friend at semesta dulu) was actually his neighbour. Hihi..what a small world. Sempat jugak jumpe die kejap. So…at 9.50 i sent him to Hentian Duta for him to board the bus. This time..i told my self i will not cry. Sedih mcm mn skali pon…i kena bertahan. It was damn bloody hard to see him go. I have to face reality that i might not be able to see him ever again. So..these four days…were four memorable days for me. Eventhough there might not be a special r’ship or things happening between us…this will definitely be one of the best memories my entire life. I have the feeling that the definition of "US" might not exist between the both of us coz i know it’s gonna be hard aand complicated so i have to face the fact. This four days will definitely be in my dictionary for the rest of my life. Thank you for spending time with me and making my life meaningful.
