When your YOUNG and SINGLE in a city, FRIENDS are your FAMILY

Time for a new entry….i wanna express my feelings in dis blog…perasaan yg telah lame aku pendam..

Perasaanku skrang tak dpt nk digambarkan…tp…ape yg aku tau…perasaan2 yg negative melebihi perasaan 2 yg positive….menyeksakan dan memakan diriku selama ini, tak tau kpd siape lg hendakku mengadu…just like i said in my previous entry…i don’t like to share my problems wif anybody…sbb aku rs macam aku menyusahkan diorang..menambahkan bebanan diorang kerana terpaksa mendengar luahan hatiku….aku lebih rela simpan…biar diriku yg tanggung semua.

Every night, sblm tdo…i’ll always ask myself…knp aku terpaksa tanggung segala penderitaan…why am i being who i am rite now?…i wanna change…i wanna be somebody different, someone yg lebey berani menghadapi all my problems…but somehow…i couldn’t….setiap kali aku keseorangan, melayan perasaan sedih..aku akan terkenang opah yg berada di kampung..everytime when i visit her…senyumannye yg manis sentiasa terukir di bibir…but deep down in her heart…i know die sedey, menderita…i can see that through her eyes…tak sangka my aunt sanggup buat die mcm tue…tinggalkan die sorang2 kt rumah…she’s already 92, jalan pon terpaksa berpaut pd ape2 je yg boleh dicapai…mcm mn die nk hidup keseorangan di rumah…

Bl pk2 blk…sebenarnye lebey ramai lg org kt luar sane yg mempunyai masalah lagi besar dr ape yg aku alami skrang nie….so….ape yg aku mampu buat skrang ialah berdoa kepada Yang Maha Esa, memohon pertolongan dariNye…but wut i really really really need and want rite now…is to be happy for at least one day..so..ade tak anybody out there yg boleh membahagiakan diriku yg berada dlm kesedihan?….hehehe.

so…i guess that’s about it. till then..*hugs*

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