When your YOUNG and SINGLE in a city, FRIENDS are your FAMILY

Hmm…asyik2 enter post yg sedih je…i do have happiness in my life…and i wanna share it wif u guyzz….Besides my family…the gift that i cherish the most are definitely my friends…they are the ones who help me through my life…lots of happy memories…i wanna describe all of ‘em but it’ll take me weeks, maybe months, maybe years to describe those memories…so in dis blog…i would like to make a shoutout….special thanx to all who’ve helped me through these years…starting with Adam a.k.a Mada..who’ve helped me countlessly since high school up till now…u were a loyal listener, problem solver….u were there when i need u…u gave me advices…i appreciate it alot…same message goes to Jannah too…who’ve always been there for me…gals of 5 Al-Khawarizmi 2003, deyna, ryna, syaz, pikak, neena…it was great being classmates…lotsa memories…the whole FOFA 9903 clan…Lancaster Uni mates, Az, Bash, Shi Ying, Diana, Azmi….thank u soooo damn much…and another important friend of mine…Najmee…hehe…thanx alot…u’ve always been there for me too…through my ups and downs…i do not know how to repay u guyzz….tp ape yg aku mampu buat…berdoa kpdNye…memohon kesejahteraan dlm hidup korang sume…and hope we’ll stay friends till the end….thank you all.

Time for a new entry….i wanna express my feelings in dis blog…perasaan yg telah lame aku pendam..

Perasaanku skrang tak dpt nk digambarkan…tp…ape yg aku tau…perasaan2 yg negative melebihi perasaan 2 yg positive….menyeksakan dan memakan diriku selama ini, tak tau kpd siape lg hendakku mengadu…just like i said in my previous entry…i don’t like to share my problems wif anybody…sbb aku rs macam aku menyusahkan diorang..menambahkan bebanan diorang kerana terpaksa mendengar luahan hatiku….aku lebih rela simpan…biar diriku yg tanggung semua.

Every night, sblm tdo…i’ll always ask myself…knp aku terpaksa tanggung segala penderitaan…why am i being who i am rite now?…i wanna change…i wanna be somebody different, someone yg lebey berani menghadapi all my problems…but somehow…i couldn’t….setiap kali aku keseorangan, melayan perasaan sedih..aku akan terkenang opah yg berada di kampung..everytime when i visit her…senyumannye yg manis sentiasa terukir di bibir…but deep down in her heart…i know die sedey, menderita…i can see that through her eyes…tak sangka my aunt sanggup buat die mcm tue…tinggalkan die sorang2 kt rumah…she’s already 92, jalan pon terpaksa berpaut pd ape2 je yg boleh dicapai…mcm mn die nk hidup keseorangan di rumah…

Bl pk2 blk…sebenarnye lebey ramai lg org kt luar sane yg mempunyai masalah lagi besar dr ape yg aku alami skrang nie….so….ape yg aku mampu buat skrang ialah berdoa kepada Yang Maha Esa, memohon pertolongan dariNye…but wut i really really really need and want rite now…is to be happy for at least one day..so..ade tak anybody out there yg boleh membahagiakan diriku yg berada dlm kesedihan?….hehehe.

so…i guess that’s about it. till then..*hugs*

Yep….the title tells everything. I have less than a month…so it’ll be "Goodbye Holidays….Hello Studies"…it could also be "Goodbye M’sia…Hello UK"….well…i dun think i wanna describe how my holidays went…but one thing I remember clearly is that i had lots of major migraines…it took me days to recover…..to tell the truth…i am facing lots and lots of problems rite now…which made me think alot…and maybe that’s why i suffer from these migraines…i do not know how to explain what type of problems i have…i dun think anybody will understand…but it doesn’t matter…coz i’m not the type of person who likes to share my problems…i like to keep it to my own…i know it’s not a good thing to do…but that’s who i am…Another truth to tell…i can’t wait to go back to UK..it may sound silly but that’s what i’m feeling rite now…wut i need rite now is some peace….i need to take some time off…i need to run away from these problems…not exactly run away…but like i said…just need some time off…i wanna be happy for at least one day…i need a day where i won’t have to think of any problems…and i think going back to UK is the best answer..coz i’ll be starting my studies soon..and i have something to occupy my thoughts..

I guess that’s all for now…i’ll update it soon..

*hugs and kisses*